Alright, quick update. As if people check up on this to check up on ol' JB. That's me, if you're confused. I did standup again on Saturday, at the Steaknife. I dislike telling people 'how it went.' Because that's the inevitable question when I see people after my act. I don't really know, honestly, I'm not in the audience. By the time I get around to performing the jokes, they're not really even funny to me anymore. One of these days I'll get around to recording my acts, but I'm gonna keep going with what I've been doing for now. Also, this time, before I went up, I was sure I was going to bomb.

I didn't bomb. It went rather well. I got laughs pretty much throughout the act, and my stage personality is slowly developing (like an autistic child. That's how it's developing, not what it is, you twit). About half of the people there were there to see me, I really did not expect such a huge response to me telling people "I'm doing standup this Friday." I'd feel better about my act if I had gotten laughs out of complete strangers, but I feel better about myself because so many people showed up. So with that kind of a diatribe going on in my brain, I guess I feel alot like I always do. Except that I have another solid comedy performance under my belt. I'm still amazed that so many people I know came to see me. They all said that it was 'pretty good' or 'pretty funny.' Whatever THAT fucking means. Oh well, I could bitch about anything (which I'm hoping is a good quality in a comedian, fuck, Dennis Miller got a career out of it.)

When I tell my dad about this he says the same thing. That's cool, I don't really expect him to say much. I do wish, though, that he'd wait until I accomplish something actually concrete before he says that he's 'proud of me.' Oh well, a relationship with a father that didn't raise you has all kinds of complications that I really don't want to go into. Except with my therapist. Which I don't have. He's said that he wishes he could've seen it. Yeah, well so do I. It's not a big deal though, we all do what we can.

I can't wait until I've got enough money to hire a bodyguard. Oh the jokes I would tell. I'm out.