So today I went to the Optomologist. Got tested to see if I was elligble for LASIK surgury. THis was supposed to be my graduation prestent from my mom. First, I go down to get my eyes examined and they give me these eye drops that make your eyes super diialated. I CANT FOCJS ON ANTHING NEAR TO ME!!! I cant even see what im typing! Second. What the FUCK kind of graduation "present" is one that you have to fucking pay for? God, I'm soo pissed off and i have no reason whatsoever to be! She said she'd lay out 1200 for lasik. Seeing as i cant see for shit, the surgury is going to cost around 2800. I dont have 1400 fucking dollars. Ialreay owe my mom like 700. Thats not even counting the car, the insurance, and the outo collision repair bill. I think the only reason im pissed is because i had such high hopes. Every fucking time i get high hopes i get let down. I know how dangerous it is to get you'r hopes up, but she said she would pay for my graduation present. cunt whore. I'm not an angry person, but when i am... i get really pissed! and im really pissed. I suppose im more pissed at myself because i when against the expectation rule. Dont expect anything. But i try so hard to trus other peop, to get out into society. To get fucked. God i want to move to the desert. little house, eat lizards and coyotes and quail... but getting a cable modem piped that far would cost a lot of money.

I hate you all.