Wow. Sorry guys, guess I have forgotten a bit about this. Almost been a week. I guess the main reason I havn't been posting is because everything has calmed down and been pretty smooth sailing for the past week or so. Nothing big has happened, very few small things have happened either I guess. I love it and I hate it. As much as I can't stand drama, I need something to go on in my life. Even if it is very mildly dramatic. I can't believe it's come to this. I am sooooo Anti-Drama. I guess I just get a little lonely sitting up here fucking like 18 hours / day. Very lonely in fact, I need a gurl, not even like a girlfriend, but just someone who shows me affection. Someone to fuck. I know what you're thinking. "You spend 18 hours / day on the computer and you think you can get a girl?" Yeah, I can, getting girls has never been a problem... the only problem now is that I don't want to exert the effort to chase one down. So basicly, I'm just asking people if they want to have sex with me. Pretty easy. And it's not like I get my expectations up or anything, I figure most will laugh and think I'm joking. But a few have said yes. I don't really expect them to follow through, I think they are just saying that... but its an ego boost none the less. Actually I guess the laziness of it all is pretty sad, but I'm kinda sad myself, so there.
Few days ago a "friend" died of an overdoes. He'd been sober for 5 months and had "found god." That's what happens when you play the dope game. I really can't say I'm too sad to see him go. I never really liked him much and didn't know him that well either. But a couple of friends were good friends with him, they're sad to see him go. I guess the worst part is that he had been trying to stay sober and had been for five months. But sacrifices must be made. Hopefully his death will inspire others to stay sober... I really hope it does even though it rarely works that way.

On a lighter note, I'm having my eye surgury Monday! No more glasses for Jed. I'm very excited even though I'm probably going to have to pay for half of it. The only problem with it is that I'm getting a vicodin script. Not that that's really a bad thing, per se. But I'm going to have to try really really really hard not to abuse it. And if I get the craving, I've decided that I'm going to give the pills to my mom so that I won't fuck up my sobrity like I did when I got my wisdom teeth pulled. I had 5 wisdom teeth. I'm special.
Well, I'm going to try posting more again. Even if it's just stupid shit.