My sleep's getting worse... only got like 1 hour last night (this morning). Completely unacceptable. Got another script from the doc and he took me off the Risperdol. Wow. looks like I havn't been posting lately. Not like I have anything better to do... Shit sucks. I ended up taking like 14 vicodin last week in a vain attempt to get fucked up. Boy, did I. Glad I didn't die. Wasn't a suicide attempt or anything... I can just be very stupid and irrational sometimes. Sometimes seems to be more and more often. Ever since I took all that shit though my depression has come back like a fatal crack in the dam. It's not that bad... but if I let that crack get wider, the dam will break. Then I'll be fucked. On a lighter note, I finally broke down and ordered some Girls Gone Wild videos to add to my pr0n collection. It has come to my attention that I need to listen to more Tool. Deffinently been slacking on the Tool... maybe that's why I feel like shit... must be.